twenty-one

In life, you’re the author of your own book. Writing in pen doesn’t come out so easily. When you make a mistake, you can’t just erase it and pretend as if nothing happened. You can always try to cover it up with white out, but it’s still there. Just turn the page over and have a fresh start, but remember your mistakes from before. This is the time to make things right

So, please, just be patient. I’m so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I’m this strong girl who can get through anything, but inside I’m very fragile. I’ve had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I’m afraid of is shattering.

I wanna believe that you’re this perfect guy and everything you seem to be is true. But when I look at you, really look at you, I can tell that I’m just barely scratching the surface. You’re that book, with the pretty cover, the one that I just can’t wait to to get into. But you should never judge a book by it’s cover, because now that I’ve read far enough into you that I just can’t put you down, there will be a twist… and everything will change… and by the last page… I’ll be heartbroken.

Do you know what it’s like to reach for the phone and then have to pull your hand back because you remember you’re not supposed to call anymore? You sit back with tears building up in your eyes because you know it’s not the last time you’ll miss the conversations you shared.

Being beautiful is more than how many boys you can get to look at you, or how much makeup you can wear. It’s about what you live for. It’s about what defines you. It’s about the heart that you have, and what makes you special. It’s about those little quirks that make you, you. It’s about going against the flow, and living out what you honestly think. And that is a beautiful thing.

—some of my recent feelings expressed through quotes I found.

feelings mostly stemming from this guy. a guy I didn’t know that long but truly impacted my life. & then he changed, like all good things do. it hurts & it will continue to hurt but I’m strong and again I’ll move on.